Since my confidence and self-esteem was brutally attacked by the world yesterday, I had no one to run to, no where to hide my weakness, except perhaps in the local bookstore and in my precious journal. I hid myself in the bookstore for hours, till it kicked me out itself. But as always, I come back with enlightened words and thoughts glued to my head, if not, in my journal. I didn’t understand the world. So I got out of it. I took a book and I escaped in the words, the emotions, and into their world. Simple as that. I had nowhere to go and was not bound by time. Once again, I found myself in a perfectly content state.
Many times that I am there, I almost never leave without reading a quote from a book. It could be from anywhere…anyone, famous or not, I just wanted quotes that will let me close my eyes upon reading and absorb its’ beauty and be enjoyed by my wisdom. I found one that allowed me to grow wings on my back, and one.. that I’ve always search for.
First. “Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling.” - Margaret Lee Runbeck American writer.
Second. “Although the world is very full of suffering, it is also full of the overcoming of it.” - Helen Keller American lecturer and writer.
I like the second one really. It just shows us how humans always focus on the negative things, but never seems to seek the rainbow after every predicament. And trust me, there is a rainbow. You just gotta look for it.
As for the first one, I realized how incontent, bitter and much of a hyprocrite I am lately. I tell people to be happy, yet I’m not happy with myself. I apologize to those that I’ve lied to. But I also realized that the cause of me getting frustrated over education and such, is much futile as it is. In the end, none of this really matters, because marks has never been the sole reason for my existence.
I live for humanity.
