So what happened was that Chris was asked to go to the school’s semiformal event the following week by Jodi. Chris was extremely excited, he couldnt sleep, every day, he would go to this girls blog page and refresh away at her page excitedly to see what she was thinking next. Days passed, the week went by very slowly, horrible things had happened to Chris, he pissed away his savings on a computer which fucked up on him when he tried to assemble it, he recieved a low mark in Math on his report card where his parents went berzerk on him, work had prevented him from talking or even seeing Jodi, but Chris didn’t let any of this bother him, he knew that thursday night, he’d be doing something that he’d only dreamed of. More days passed, Jodi had stopped talking to Chris online at night, and they hadnt seen each other at school, He was having his doubts and felt like he needed to confront her, he knew something was up. So that night, Chris and Jodi talked, apparently Jodi was sick and she was still in the midst of dealing with another relationship but Chris had nothing to do with it. So he was assured for the time being, and excitedly started thinking about semiformal again.

The night came, Chris had never attended a semiformal before, as he entered the banquet hall, he was greeted with a warm hug from Jodi, and what seemed like hours, Chris mingled with friends. An announcement about the dinner came and Chris sat next to Jodi, his heart raced, waiting for the right moment to say something, but that moment never came, he sat in silence as he ate his dinner, at that moment he realized how alone he felt, he was sitting at a table with familiar faces, but none of them knew of him. so he continued to sit quietly at the table and dinner ended. it was time to dance. Chris had always been shy about dancing, mainly because he didnt know how to. Chris followed Jodi and her friends out to the dance floor and trying to rid the feeling of embarrasment from his gut. He didn’t want to look stupid or foolish so he looked around and watched the way others moved. Moments later he found himself lost in the crowd, everyone had moved around so much that he had lost site of Jodi and her friends so Chris quickly walked around in search of friends. He saw a group of familiar faces, the gr.11 gifties. and he didnt feel as tense around them than the group of gr.12′s he’d been around with. So he took to the music and began to dance, and he learned to love what he thought was dancing, swinging his arms up and down, sided to side and shuffling his feet to the beat.

He then heard the music slow down, Chris had never slow danced a day in his life, not even at those prehighschool dances, Jodi had greabbed his hand and they proceeded to an open area of the dance floor, and as they danced, Chris felt pure happiness, it was an undescribable feeling, unfortunately, the song ended quickly and Chris found himself lost in the crowd again. for the rest of the night, he danced along with his friends, he was very tired from the lack of sleep he’d had in the past few days so went for some coffee. By the end of the night, Chris was happy, there was one more slow song, and he had seeked out Jodi, but she had already started dancing with one of her friends, this didn’t bother him that much, he didn’t know the rules, but as that song played, he began to cry, he didnt know why, as Jodi had told him, they were just 2 people who happened to have a crush on each other, no biggie. he quickly wiped away the tears and partied with another friend, Ken, he thought if he looked like he was having fun, no one would be the wiser, and it worked.

So at the end of the night, Chris hugged Jodi goodnight and they parted ways. He felt empty, and to make things worse for him, his ride home had ditched him last second. He ended up getting a ride his friend, Jelena who was an organizer. around 1:30 he arrived home and thanked jelena and her dad for the ride. He readched into his pocket and his heart stopped, he had left his key in the house, he couldnt get in. Chris walked to the nearby park, luckily it stopped snowing and he fell asleep. He woke up and his dad had woken up and gotten the door for him, he quickly changed in to his band uniform. Today he had a field trip, one where he could spend more time with Jodi. But he had such mixed feelings, he didnt know what to think.

He arrived at school adn jodi was nowhere to be found, he slept through mr. thomas’ little speech and through the entire bus ride. when he arrived at the hotel, he wandered aaround and at one of the booths he saw Jodi. a smile immediately appeared on his face as he went over to greet her, but as he smiled at her, he could see that Jodi wasn’t very happy. for the rest of that day, Chris followed her around that hotel hoping for a chance to speak with her. at the end of the day, he’d lost contact with her adn boarded the bus with his heart in pieces. He couldnt figure out why she wouldnt talk to him. That night, she came online and again confronted Chris. This time it wasn’t the reassuring news he had heard last time. She told him she wasn’t ready. even though he was a sensitive person it wasn’t really in his nature to cry, but he did. tears streamed down his cheeks. He quickly repied to her that it was ok, trying to be as calm and collective as he could act, he didn’t want to upset jodi by telling her how he really felt. he couldnt handle his emotions and fell asleep, he didnt know how to deal with what he was feeling, so he tried to forget what had happened. he erased his blog. The next day, he was feeling like shit, he was going to be playing in the santa claus parade. He didnt even sign up for it till thursday morning after hearing that Jodi would also be performing in it. so the day went by and neither of them talked to each other, she didnt take one look at him all day. Chris was devestated. later that evening, chris talked again to jodi one more time asking her to forget everything that happened, Jodi believed that Chris was overreacting, who could feel this way after only being with each other for a week, and there wasnt even a relationship, just friends as she had said. I told her what she wanted to hear.

I just cant let go, The feelings are too strong and I dont know what to do, i told her that we should go back to being friends before this whole thing happened. at the same time, I realized how immature and greedy I was, but this is the first time ive ever had these types of feelings, something that words can not describe. but now i just feel bad for making her go through what i feel. I just hope I can get through this week, it’s going to be hard to convince her that everythings ok, but I would do anything for this girl.. “