February 20, 2007
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Dear Heart:
Shut the fuck up.
I hate it when you blubber.
Shut. Up. Heart.
My heart is blue today.
I’ve been burning it with an excess consumption of cinnamon hearts.
My tongue can’t feel now, too much cinnamon.
But the heart still bleeds, bleeds.
What do you do when your heart bleeds. Hit it? Eat ice cream? Find a healer? Shop til you drop? Fuck it? Drown it with alcohol? I want to know what you do to ease the pain.
Comments (13)
Wanna trade? My heart is made of rubber. There’s no feeling and it gets bounced around a lot. =)
zing!
AHAHAHAHHHAH you like that eh?
i thought it would be an interesting way of presenting the prize =D
awww whats wrong??????????
you’re jokes!
come over. or shall i come over and bring it to you.
i love cinnamon hearts! I used to eat them till my tongue would get those little cuts.
play some warcraft
damn it. you have more comments than me today. BLAST!
hmmm… lemme see… first you have to pass the test. then you have to pay the dowry. then hopefully my parents will give out my hand. oh yeah, are you good with kids?
you sleep.
sleep, because if you’re awake, and you’re like me, you’ll eat.
eating = fat
being fat makes you even sadder than you were to begin with.
it’s a cruel, cruel cycle.
therefore, you sleep.
you can’t eat in your sleep.
unless you’re some kinda trippy sleep-walker who can find her way to the kitchen to dig up food at 3am unconsciously.
also, being asleep keeps you from thinking about whatever is breaking that vulnerable cardiac muscle of yours.
unless you dream about it.
then you’re pretty much fucked.
but let’s try to be optimistic here, shall we?
oh, and when it’s necessary to be awake (i.e. sometimes at school, or when your mom is talking to you), you pretend that you are a robot.
tell yourself “I AM ROBOT” (you can even say it in a really nerdy techno voice)
repeatedly.
in your mind, or aloud (the latter option has larger consequences.. people will stare, and i mean, people WILL stare.)
but no matter – you ARE a robot, right?
robots have no hearts.
no worries.
run head-first into a wall? ;D
there’s no pain when you’re unconscious!
hmm when your heart bleeds…i’m lucky cause i can consciously forget things on purpose and really actually forget them if i really want to. guess sleeping does help. or just not thinking about it. keep yourself busy (you’re an expert at that anyways) so keep yourself busy…and dont’ think about it cause that mere thought can provoke your sadness.
hope you’re doing alrite hun, sorry i had to leave to abruptly =(
i’ll see ya soon though alrite?
luv ya!
jan =)
you play wii.
you can come play wii with me and my friends.
awww hope you’re ok. my solution is to vent to friends who understand my perspective and who also can provide much-needed wisdom…. and a dose of optimism…