Almost Lovers

Dedicated to Resolc and Meunonomo.

“You told me you would never forget these images…”

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Merry Christmas everyone.

5 More Days Till Christmas?

…did you even know that? I didn’t until I looked at my Christmas tree on facebook. “5 more days”, that’s crazy. I am so not prepared for Christmas this year. 1) I have a couple more presents to buy 2) I haven’t even started writing Christmas cards 3) I don’t even know what I am doing on Christmas day and 4) My REAL Christmas tree isn’t even up in the living room.

I am so not prepared. And quite frankly, I am not in the Christmas mood/spirit right now. If you knew me in real life, you would say that that’s quite unlike me. Christmas is my favourite holiday of all time.

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Free Bunny.

My parents have been bugging the heck out of me to give the bunny away. And each day, because the lack of love, care and attention at the cause of my busy working/school life, I cannot take care of her to the full extent. It breaks my heart when I can’t let her out the cage and watch her for half an hour, because I can’t even find the time to do that — so ultimately, Maddy would be cage-ridden. But she shouldn’t be.

So I’ve decided two days ago to put a post up on craiglist. And within an hour, I had emails pouring in for Maddy. (It was the cutesy photo of her, I tell ya, that won everyone over). So many emails, which person should I hand Maddy’s life to, and in hope that they won’t eat her? Well, I did the corporate-bitch-resume-scanning method.

If there were any spelling mistakes in the body of the email – BIG NONO!

And let me tell you, with that criteria in mind, it eliminated EVERYONE except this one very well-spoken gentleman that apparently works for Dell. “Hmmm, he seems like a sophisticated and knowledgeable man. Seems like he can provide for my little Maddy.”

Nobody had an attached “signature” at the bottom of their email, except Mr. Dell man and his girlfriend. Yes, his girlfriend works for Dell as well. “Double-income family? Works for me!”

So now I understand the feelings of a mother that wants their daughter to marry off with a reputable man — because simply, the mother just wants the best care that her daughter could ever receive. Likewise, for Maddy.

YouTube: Direct Contest (FINALIST)
“Well-deserved.”

I’ve been plagued by a life of a simpleton. I want something more.

Bubbly Feet.

Standing in new heels is brutal. Having to stand in them for hours, and then walk all over the city is daunting. My feet are crying. And no, it’s not from the snow seeping into my socks and then wetting my feet. They are genuinely crying.

Must get comfortable shoes, preferably not heels. Any good brands you recommend for a future TD bank teller that will presumably stand behind that counter for 8.5 hours?

Okay, shopping spirit is on!

…just after I watch this Chris Rock episode. Need some laughter in my life amidst all this snow and gloomy mornings.

When I woke up this morning, my 10-year old brother made me scrambled eggs for breakfast. That is very sweet, I must say. It almost makes me feel bad about not sharing my Nintendo DS with him… almost.

 I told you I couldn’t give you what you wanted…
…at least not now…
                   and you still took on the deal.

I told you that I ain’t the same…
…at least for now…
and you disregarded my claim.

I told you we were on different pages…
…at least for now…
                    and you kept on turning the pages.

I told you that my priorities are different than yours…
…at least right now…
you can see my true colours.

My heart just ain’t the same. To feel, or not to feel — never really ended up with an opinion or answer. You keep forgiving, and I keep on sining. It’s a vicious cycle. Maybe it’s the distance, maybe it’s me, maybe it’s you, maybe it’s everything. Ever thought of, things happening at the wrong place and at the wrong time? This might be one of those cases.

You keep on believing the unreal.
The past is not the present me.
This is me now.
…can’t go back.          

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They were right. You should never enter a relationship, knowing that you weren’t going to give it your all. “Trying it out” just isn’t going to cut it. I would not have ended up in this mess if only I listened.

There is a love story that I want it to work,
but my heart can’t seem to wrap its feelings around it.

R.I.P Lost-Earmuffs.

I lost my earmuffs. For those that know me well, they were very dear to me. Not because they were given to me by somebody special, but because of their simple usage and functionality: keeping my ears warm. Those earmuffs exceeded my expectations in that region. My ears were always so warm and toasty.

How can I ask for more?

I am saddened. I want my earmuffs.