July 9, 2004

• Told you I should’ve guarded my heart. Now I’m left out in the middle. No one’s gonna save me now… I’m just too broken for anyones’ use.

  
  

  But then again, look what I found…

  
  

  “Usefulness is not impared by imperfection; you can drink from a chipped cup.” – Greta K. Nagel     American Writer.

  
  

   

  
  

  4:59pm

  
  

  I hear myself loud and clear: It’s time to humble myself again. Got too high of myself, thought I can do anything, thought I could be smart and perhaps stupid at the same time. No.. they were just temporary illusions. Not getting the marks that I wanted.. fine. Whatever. I tried. But what pisses me off sometimes is the fact that the girl sitting beside me copies my notes and yet she got a 98 on her test and i’m stuck with a 80? — Forget it, no point of being angry or jealous for that matter. I told myself I’m gonna work hard, and I will. I won’t give up like most people, but it just sickens me how the world runs sometimes. and it just plain destroys me when I realize… what kinda person I’ve become.

  
  

  It scares me how I don’t have a strong sense of self. Who the hell am I? 

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