July 11, 2004
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Went to the beach today with Irene and Kent. When Renie and Kent went off, I was left alone peacefully to ponder all the questions and things that has been settled in the back of my head. So I lay there, listening to the waves and watching the pastel coloured sky, and for once, this is what I felt:
Empty.
My mind was blank.
It was as if the waves were instantly washing away all my emotions, leaving me in a state of oblivion and apathy. It really did scare me, because every question that I had, every thought.. led to nothing but an empty shrug of the shoulder. I didn’t know what to think, didn’t know what to say. Even in times of doubt, for that moment, that ‘doubt’ became your answer, and it just felt so right even if it turns out wrong at the end. Even if you didn’t have the right answer, it became your answer. I had nothing. Blank.
Why can’t I think?
