August 2, 2004

• Today’s been nothing but wasted hours. Sat here, sat there, stood here, watched that, slept there. Whatever. I just bummed around at home basically. Waiting for what you asked? A pitiful call from McDonald’s. (Bangs head on table) This is becoming so ridiculous. Call me already.

  
  

  About 3-ish, mom barged  into my room and found me on the bed napping my hours away. She woke me up to go shopping, and even with a condescending debt card, I will fight my way to the mall regardless. Hey, no harm window shopping. (hehhh… right.)

  
  

  I groaned and rolled around in bed mumbling: “Must. Wait. For. Call. Mom. Must. waiiiit.”

  
  

  Then, without warning, mom dropped a bomb that killed me 5 times over.

  
  

  “Ellen. It’s Civic’s holiday today. They’re not gonna call you.”

  
  

  Silent pause.

  
  

  “What?” (Blink blink)

  
  

  “Uh.. yeaa…Silly girl”

  
  

  I sat there on my bed. Don’t know whether I should break out in a frenzy or have an internal frenzy instead, silent… but deadly.

  
  

  I mean, am I retarded or something? I biked all the way to the library early this morning, only to find it closed cause of the holiday. So why didn’t it come to my mind that they’re PROBABLY not gonna call me? Wow. I just totally wasted another precious day of summer. Summer means alot to me if you people don’t already know. And here I am…. making an ass of myself.

  
  

  Come to think of it, the internal frenzy sounds appealing… I think I’ll go with that.

  
  

  (Blank stare into space)

  • 6:31 pm
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