May 14, 2005
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I should really stop drinking coffee during night time. I’ve been sleeping so late because of the new caffeine addiction that I have. Work coffee is so good. So this is what happens, me staying up at like 2-3 in the morning.
What is great though is that i am officially on shift probation. Meaning that I am not allowed to take other people’s shift because I have, well quite frankly, taken too many over the past few months. Not only do they NOT want to pay me the extra overtime, i’ve been very tired and burnt out from all the work. And this is great, because since my problem is that i can’t say no to people asking me to take thier shift(s), all I have to do is just turn my head to a manager and they will point at me and go: “Ellen, don’t you even dare.” And I just go tell my coworkers: “Hey man, I tried.” Now they’re saying no for me. It’s great.
Two things I realized about my self lately:
- I get set off about anything. And if you just so happen to frustrate me on the streets, I will eventually throw a tantrum in public and could careless if it humiliates you or not.
- How I see the world is not how I saw it before. My philosophy about life has changed — and yet to be discovered.
- My thoughts are almost, or always scattered because my emotions change and somethings about me changed also. I think this leads to me not focussing so much anymore in anything that i do.. because overall, i just don’t know what i’m doing and what the hell i’m here for.
- Sometimes, I ask the most dumbest questions asked by a chinese girl. Makes me wonder, is it because i was surrounded by blondes at school, that i’m slowly turning into a dumb blonde also?
- Don’t think I should become an English teacher anymore. Afterall, I do hate writing essays, and who likes a grammar nazi anyway?
Okay, for those that can count, that was more than two things. For those who can’t… hey, who gives a damn..
