October 3, 2005

• “CHILL” BLOG? No not really.

  
  

  I go through other people’s xangas and there are some that jumps out at me with a sense that, I should also pursue a life of fun and happiness. Though I go back to my writings, maybe 5 to 10 entries ago, and they all sound so gloom. Why can’t my xanga be the ones that are only focused on the good times and just good ol’ hanging out with friends? Is it because I don’t go out enough? No, I go out as much as my schedule can afford to, thus  i am not complaining. So what is it? Why does my writing feel like it’s so dark, like itself has a vacuous hole just sucking every emotion out of it?

  
  

  My only conclusion to this is that my life moves too fast. So fast I can’t really sit down and dwell on any of the bad, rotting emotions. So when I actually have the time to stop by the xanga block, the only thing I can get out is the bad apples in my life.

  
  

  Do I overburden myself with too much work, that blessings become underrated and forgotten?

  
  

  I don’t know what it is. Maybe my blogs aren’t meant for the summaries of my hang outs with my friends. It’s not a chill-blog. Maybe my blog is different. It’s nelle’s blog: when she actually has time to sit down and talk.

  
  

  Good-day Xangans.

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