December 31, 2006
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And there it goes.
For some of you that have known me for quite some time now, you know I have always indulged in my own little fairy tales. Since I could remember, I would have “secretly wishing” as the display on my cell phone and msn name. But it is not until recently that my display on my cell phone has changed to “out of clouds” – meaning none other than me having my “head out of the clouds”.
SECRET WISH: http://www.xanga.com/secret_agent_nelle/361738011/item.html
It’s a reminder to myself every time I wait by the phone for that person to call — that I really shouldn’t be.
As the new year comes around, I’ve decided to let this dream go. I’m tired of chasing love, chasing hope, chasing P.C. It’s naïve of me to love the idea of being in love.
Most of all, I am tired of being disappointed. I lay out my vulnerabilities only to be crushed and left behind. I will wait, but I will not chase. The wall has been built. I am in full guard of this heart of mine.
Will consummate love ever be reached? But love is a gamble, at least, in this life it is.
Comments (2)
good post. i think we all have our own fairy tales that we wish it would come true but then eventually realized they are “fairy tales” and not reality.
i just want to learn to stop being so naive all the time. anyways, happy new years dear.
hope you had a good one, i was drenched and i got shoved. haha. way to kick start 2007. =P
i forgot the date and the year, but i gave up a looong time ago. hahaha. no wonder i feel so free!
but i say… keep hope alive! just be sure you don’t miss him when he appears nor mistake someone for prince charming when he’s not. tricky, huh?