October 23, 2007
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In Love?
No, not quite.
Sometimes, I just feel like I’m adequate to only take care of my own emotions. Being in a relationship is like caring for two. And even when you’re infatuated with another person, it carries the same onus as if you were in a relationship — you tend to care about their feelings more than yours, and lets not forget, we always want them to feel good about themselves so that maybe they will see the good in you and promise a future together.
Well, like I said, I feel adequate to only take care of myself, hence my definition of taking care of emotions is one that is “laissez-faire”. I just let it go. Time will heal. And for alot of people, that’s not their ideal way of healing. So, what am I suppose to do?
However, my ideal of “laissez-faire” is not limited in such a way. I admit, I never know how to take care of those that are closest to me, that are dear to me, it is as if the closer you are to me, the more I take you for granted. I just don’t know how to show you how much I care. It’s so much easier for me to show strangers that I care, because all it requires is some money being thrown in a paper cup, opening doors, buying presents, however, to show gratitude to somebody you (potentially) love, requires a lifetime of debt to repay — in which, none that are materialistic.
I will care for everybody else in the world, yet, you will find yourself isolated in the corner of my heart. Why? I don’t know, perhaps it’s a way for me to be desensitized. Yes, you can walk away, but not if I walk away first.
To this day, I’ve never really utilized the word “love” in an appropriate manner. It never went between the “I” and the “you”, and God forbid — a name that followed such a statement.
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Experience is what you get, when you don’t get what you want.
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Little Black Dress.
I want, I want, I want!!! I need?
Cathie Black, CEO of Hearst Magazines Inc: “You only get to make one first impression. Once you walk into the room, the other person has already made an assessment of you in the first five seconds they laid their eyes on you.”
If you don’t know who Cathie Black is, or even worse, what Hearst Magazines is all about, take your Cosmopolitan magazine, turn it to the side and read the binding…
Cathie, is all about the basics of black. Oh, how that reinforces me to strengthen the number of my black wardrobe empire!
Meanwhile, I think these are the next few items that need to enter into my closet. Introducing…
The Shift Dress.
It is called the “shift” dress because it is essential to every business woman’s wardrobe. (Calvin Klein pinstripe sheath dress $148, Ori’en satin long trench coat by Cindi Chan for Macy’s $350)
The Jersey Dress
I don’t know why it’s called the Jersey dress, but isn’t it cute?
(Macy’s Dress by Cynthia Steffe $240, DKNY plum short jacket $425)
The Fit-and-Flare dress.
You can’t really see the bottom in this picture, but it fits nicely on the top, and flares open at the bottom.
(Calvin Klein shirt dress $198)
The Suit.
Still one of my favourites of all time, and you can see why. : )
(Theory suit jacket “Gabe B.” $360, Theory suit pants “Emery.” $230, Club Monaco “Sadie” cashmere scarf $99
Comments (2)
my favourites are the suit (because it’s classic and will never face the challenge of fashion) and the fit-and-flare (just because it slightly makes you feel girlier having a flow-able, flaring at the end!)
i like the last two. and i disagree with the experience quote. i have plenty of great things that happen to me that i also call experiences. my experience in good and bad gives me a balanced outlook, it’s not just the bad experiences that help me learn.