January 15, 2008

  • People.


    L is a great girl. Tall, blonde, bubbly, attractive. I tell you, if I were a guy, I might just… However, that is not the point here. The point is to admire people like L. I work with L and I often find myself anticipated to work on the same shift as L. I’m still new at my job, so I need tons of help, as do most newbies do. Most colleagues of mine would display some kind of annoyance as I repeatedly ask questions (yes, I love asking questions if I don’t understand something), not that I blame them for being slightly annoyed with me, but L would never show annoyance towards me – but instead she would help me with open arms and a smile. 


    I don’t know, her constant positivity and energy just makes me feel uplifted. And oddly to say, happy. Because she’s just THAT contagious.


    Do I sound somewhat like a lesbian at this point?


    Sorry if I do, that was never my intent. It’s just that L really is a great person.


    Speaking of which, L reminds me of some really  happy people that I’ve met in my life. I’ve always grew some attraction to those people, as I had a dark period in my life, and the only type of people I would like to hang out with are people that are the polar opposites — the bubbly people with no problems. So that, maybe, just maybe I would live my sad life vacariously through their happy lives with no problems. But one day, M cried. And it was a sight to watch, as I never thought people as happy as M would every be so sad. It broke my heart regardless, and that’s when I knew that even very happy people, are only happy on their outer shell. Everybody has some kind of problems. 


    Back to L. I don’t know, is it even possible to always be so happy and positive? Maybe it’s just another outer shell waiting to be cracked by life’s circumstances? I try to be positive in every situation, because if I think about it, there’s nothing that I really need to complain about in life. I have everything, anything extra is just bonuses. And material? They’re just material things.


    Anyway, I’m late for class. So I’ll finish this post later.