April 10, 2008
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Emotional Compensation.
Eating half a can of whipped cream makes life’s problems disappear.
For me, going to work hits the spot. When I’m sad, I go to work. Something about work that gives me the satisfaction of accomplishment and I’m not just referring to my immediate job, it has always been that way, even when it was with Mickey D’s — I go to work, whenever I’m sad.
One day, I was really sad about something, probably about men, but found myself mumbling under my breath, “Thank God I have work today. ” Yeah. I actually said that. Then I realized how mindless I was with my problems when I was at work, how I continued to serve customers with all my passion and still was able to up hold that smile on my face.
I guess, in a sense, it’s better than having myself sit at home and wallow. Chances are, if you leave me sitting in one setting with nothing to do but with a computer to surf the internet and a tub of ice-cream, I will conjure up images and start over-thinking the problem and the inevitable tears will follow. But you can’t cry in public or at work — you just can’t. You cry at work as a tactic to GET out of work for reason of a “funeral”, “dead pet”, “family problems”, “my s.o broke up with me” or “i’m pregnant/miscarried”, which they all work very well of getting one out of work.
Nothing feels better than exceeding your sales goal. Nothing.
And so, I balance the options.
Wallow or Make Money?
Not much competition there.
I love work. I work, so that I wouldn’t have to feel.
It makes my problems go away. Money and emotional problems alike.
Thank God, I have work today.
Comments (7)
i’ll take making money over wallowing any day.
and as for refusing an M.D., there’s just no easy way to do that. one of my old bosses was M.D. everytime he’d tell me to do something, i would just nod, but in the end, I’d never do it. he got the point after a while.
hahaha you’re one of the few that would choose work over staying at home! i’m a stay at home kind of guy…i need to find a suga mommma and i be the stay at home dadddddy, care to apply?
I do the sameeee. I can’t stand being jobless…
I’d be super embarassed if I ever cried at work, actually scratch that, I’ve cried in front of my manager because I had to tell him I was quitting and I felt bad…. embarassing.. haha (:
Oh dear yeah I’ve cried at work…but it wasn’t full out bawling, it was just tears of pain cause my uterus felt like it was trying to rip it’s way outta me but other than that no =P Although I agree that yeah…going to work buffers the effect of wanting to wallow. And yeah, seeing customers and employees is always great =)
mm yea I feel that way too bout work..get my mind busy ..
but at the end of the day..the problem is still there, tho..
just postponed~
*sigh*
you know they have a leave of absence for breakups now in some cities? i read this in some mag
I could not believe it, but sometimes on those really bad days, you just need a day off to sulk and eat that can of whipped cream lol