April 11, 2005
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I hate the downfall in this story. She’s become the perfect hubris, a inner fight that will slowly kill herself. Yet there is nothing left for her to do, it is just how she is and always will be. A plain doormat for every enemy to step on and enjoy this sweet sweet revenge. And she so gladly accepts it. Thinking it’s a grace that someone has decided to collide into her pitiful world – boom – and everything crashes into chaos. She wonders if anyone hears her heart, if anyone ever loved it and appreciated it. She believed every word that he said and took it in her hands to cherish it. Then the outside starts to deteriorate and everything becomes a lie and the words becomes dark ashes. It flies away so slowly and tears won’t glue them together.
I hate how I am so vulnerable to you.
I hate how I can’t say the words
that pains me so much and let you see it.
Comments (7)
OH. LOOK at who FINALLY messages me! HMPH!!!!!!!
but….
: )
you little shithead. get yourself together now.
i love you ha gau!
That was really beautiful. Hope you’re feeling okay. Haha, kind’ve weird for one blogger to say to another – but I bet in real life…we’d be such good friends.
It would be so random if we bumped into each other. I look forward to the idea.
hey ellen
“i’m rad, you’re rad, let’s hug!”
thanks SO much again for coming with me. hope ya had fun, next time we surf : )
isn’t hubris pride?
Don’t our own parents suck? I hate bringing guys home because they’re so judgmental. Makes you want to trade in your parents all the time. It’s okay, I don’t live with mine anymore, nor do I feel the need to bring any boys home to meet them either.
I’m very, very sad because I did not actually go. With dilly-dallying by a certain person
, by the time we were ready to go, it was already 8 and we were in Scarborough. Wasn’t sure if it was worth it to get to the airport area and have the concert be 75% done. I was so disappointed. I’ve been listening to all my JEW cds 
to make up for it. But anyways, bf promises to take me to many more concerts. Tell me if you go to any! I think I’m going to Nine Inch Nails and Mars Volta in May. Don’t worry, I always get trampled! but crowd surfing is FUN.
Man, I’d love to live in New York.