April 28, 2008
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Freedom.
I’ve been living in total freedom for the past 12 days, but what seems like the most dreadful and wasted 12 days of my life. No schedules, no stress, no deadlines, no progress, no goals, ultimately my identity was lost in the last twelve days.
Sounds familiar? Starts with a “S” and ends with “lacking”? Yeah, totally.
I didn’t know who I am, didn’t know what I was doing, didn’t know what my purpose was in this world. The worse is, knowing what I really wanted in life; I was not working towards it. Passivity is not really something I’m fond of, although sometimes I can be quite the passive onlooker depending on the content of the task.
Meanwhile, I feel like I lost 50 IQ points for not needing to attend an educational institution. It’s summer baby. And thank God – I have summer school.
I just want to wake up and go HELLO WOOORRLD!!! I AM HERE TO CONQUER YOU!!! AND ACHIEVE WHAT I’VE ALWAYS WANTED IN LIFE!!!
Kind of like what this person is doing:
Don’t you ever feel that way? You have a million things you want to do in life, but somewhere in your mind, you’re restless, and you just can’t move from the very same chair that you’ve been sitting on for the past six hours – days – or even weeks.
For myself, doing something totally outside the box helps in creating a new emotion, perspective, and a new routine to counteract the uniform life that one is living. I started taking night walks with the Ipod, and it gives me a sense of rejuvenation and peace as I return home. It’s a nice refreshed feeling.
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On a totally random note: Life is too short to eat crappy Ramen noodles. It is not a wholesome meal at all. Maybe I should stop feeding my boyfriend that.
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Comments (6)
Whoa. You love school that much?
@kingofblur - Yes, yes I do. Only because it keeps me busy, so I don’t think about men too much, and I can argue my heart out on things that I am passionate about.
nutella on bread is the way to go.
appreciation of our ability to learn is a sign that we are boycotting our “did i really pay for this dull class” mentality.
it’s down the right path. and it’s a good sign.
and i think i know you. well i probably don’t but something sparkled in my hidden storage space, like those unused icons on your desktop that one day looks marvelously intriguing.
but i do believe we have a mutual friend.
@ladyvince15 - How do you figure? Have we bumped into each other before? AA days?
I think our mutual friend is none other than Mr.Nathan Ho. (?)
Wow, this was such an interesting read, I don’t know many people who LIKE summer school, haha! And I love Ramen, but it is sooo bad for you, lol. I should stop eating it. >_< I hope you have a great weekend!
~Misa
nutella = off the hook.
i’m usually the type that has to just drop everything and rest before i go on to new and big projects.
but night walks with the ipod is refreshing. there’s just nothing better than putting things in cruise control and letting life happen through you.