January 29, 2009

• I Am Smiling.

  Because I understand now. Everything that people couldn’t answer, everything he wouldn’t answer, I went out and got answers for. And damn, does it feel better than ever. After months, hours, minutes of talking, expressing, crying, praying; it all becomes so crystal clear.

  And she’s right,
  forgiveness is such a sacred and precious thing for me to give.
  Yet, whom I want to give it to, probably doesn’t even acknowledge the wrong.

  And so I realized:
  That I am not responsible for his well-being anymore
  That I am not responsible for his change.
  That I am not responsible whether he see the lessons in our fall.
  That I am not responsible for him at all.

  It lies within his choice.

  Many people have tried to show me the facts, but it just doesn’t make sense until you take a step forward and start believing it. And when you believe — oh life changes. Life. Changes. And nothing, and I mean nothing, can stop you from there. A weight lifted up.

  I’m just going up from here baby… Life IS good. God is good.

   

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